Today I had a mini panic attack. There were so many things going on in my mind, so many things to deal with and I couldn’t manage. I felt breathless, felt like I couldn’t concentrate in anything. The feeling sucks so badly.
My event is coming up this Saturday, but there are so many things not settled. And I left the office for an interview feeling so much unease, which resulted in me screwing up my interview. <br>
Coupled with some guy problems, I eventually sort of hyperventilated and felt so breathless in the train. Thankfully the sis called me at that moment and talking to her made me pour out all my emotions and cry it all out. Literally, I was sobbing uncontrollably at the train station lol. So embarrassing on hindsight.
But it felt good letting it all out, it felt good talking to the sis. Knowing all my weak points and allowing myself to fall into the trap of self-loathing was bad, it was not okay, but the sis assured me that we are only humans. It’s okay to fall once in a while, it’s okay to feel worthless at times, but you got to learn to pick yourself up and move on. That’s what life is all about. You make mistakes, you learn and you move on.
It’s important to know how valuable you are, and you don’t live for other people’s values. You don’t have to BE like others, you just have to be yourself, and others will like you for who you are.
It never gets easier, it just gets better. Press on Jas, you know you’re strong enough and you’re worth it.
